I live on the corner of such and such…close to so and so…in the brown brick house with the porch swing…This is the normal answer. But ya’ll should know by now, I’m not always normal. I’m thinking a little deeper today…
A more literal answer might be that I live inside a 5 foot 3 inch, 100-plus-a-few pounds body (ya’ll don’t need all the exact specs). I have a brain that tells my heart to beat and my lungs to breath. Now, if my brain quits “talking” to my body, I will very quickly have a problem here and find myself with a new weightless body on the other side of life! So, for sure, my brain is essential to me being alive and I’m grateful for it.
But, are you like me and sometimes you just want to turn off the part of the brain that is talking directly TO you…the thoughts that keep coming,…the memories that bring on the sadness of loved ones lost, time you can’t get back, mistakes you made that don’t even seem to matter now and yet you still want a do-over so badly; the voices that strike fear when you think of starting something new…saying “you aren’t smart enough or outgoing enough or organized enough… you just aren’t enough… stick with what you know”….
It’s truly an oxymoron that the same brain that keeps us alive, so often keeps us from fully living. And somehow we find ourselves unbathed and still in pj’s at 5:58… surrounded by the chaos of papers, half read books, journals we can’t find words for… bowls with dried up remnants of yogurt…and no idea of what dinner is going to be.
Ok, so that may have been an overshare. But I woke up today thinking of all the things I wanted to do…What in the world happened to this day??….
….and that’s where I stopped writing, one day, some time last year.
So it’s funny that I ran across this draft on this day, because…
Yesterday I did laundry, ironed shirts, walked the dog, painted a kitchen, showered, and had a fabulous dinner on the table by 6:00.
Today, I find myself sitting in my chair, pulling up old blog drafts…unbathed at 2:07…eating an ice cream sandwich…wondering what’s for dinner…
“I woke up today thinking of all the things I wanted to do…
What in the world happened to this day??”
I don’t have a nice little wrap up for these thoughts … it’s just been one of those days. I’m sharing in case anyone else can relate. I wish I was 100 percent productive and “on it” every day. I wish my brain didn’t get so full and shut my body down. But maybe some of our days call for rest, processing thoughts and feelings, and …ice cream sandwiches. I’m pretty certain, right now, the shower is calling me. 😂
Tomorrow will be a brand new day! What in the world will we do with it??
I wish you all a Good one…. ❤️